Life

Could I dismiss myself- become so detached that I barely even recognise this life. I'm losing, for my life can only exist if I dull my emotions down and put on a front. I'm unsure on whether or not I even love people anymore, I need people that's for sure but the love, it may have vanished. all of hasnt felt the right for a while like its swirling in my brain waiting to be constructed down and dismantled into pieces that are consumable for reason. but appart from this reasonable mind there is a chaotic one striving for pure recklessness.